Wow, two places to emo

I've been very, very bad about writing lately. I haven't looked at Knights of Orion since I finished it, and to be honest, I'm terrified to. I don't want to see all of the stuff that'll jump out at me and force me to rewrite it. Again.

I just have not been motivated to write. I'm hoping that with NaNo starting in about 25 hours, I'll get the kick in the pants that I need.

I have a bad feeling that this year might be the year I fail NaNo.

I'm just not writing.

I don't know why. The stories are there, the words are there, but there's just so much other stuff to do, that I can't be bothered.

Which scares me. For those that read my other blog, they know that there are a lot of personal reasons behind that fear. I know that I can write, I just don't have the motivation to.

But, I am doing NaNo. If nothing else, it'll give me the kick in the butt to get stuff done. This is also the first year in a long time that I'm not doing KoO as a rewrite for NaNo. Which is nice.

I honestly think I've gotten to the point where if I'm not working on it, I don't know what to work on.

I have other stories to do, just that one has been with me for so long that I can't get past it.

I'm hoping NaNo can be the impetus.

Okay, I'm just repeating myself over and over. I think I'm going to go play something dull.