Wow, two places to emo

[dragonjournal]

I've been very, very bad about writing lately. I haven't looked at Knights of Orion since I finished it, and to be honest, I'm terrified to. I don't want to see all of the stuff that'll jump out at me and force me to rewrite it. Again.

I just have not been motivated to write. I'm hoping that with NaNo starting in about 25 hours, I'll get the kick in the pants that I need.

I have a bad feeling that this year might be the year I fail NaNo.

I'm just not writing.

I don't know why. The stories are there, the words are there, but there's just so much other stuff to do, that I can't be bothered.

Which scares me. For those that read my other blog, they know that there are a lot of personal reasons behind that fear. I know that I can write, I just don't have the motivation to.

But, I am doing NaNo. If nothing else, it'll give me the kick in the butt to get stuff done. This is also the first year in a long time that I'm not doing KoO as a rewrite for NaNo. Which is nice.

I honestly think I've gotten to the point where if I'm not working on it, I don't know what to work on.

I have other stories to do, just that one has been with me for so long that I can't get past it.

I'm hoping NaNo can be the impetus.

Okay, I'm just repeating myself over and over. I think I'm going to go play something dull.

Comments

[jehanne1431]

It's understandable. You're under a lot of stress, which can really re/de-press the desire and/or ability to be creative. Maybe after you get moved and settled in your new place, things will be better.

Maybe try something totally new and different from your usual writing for NaNo?

[dragonjournal]

TWO MINUTES TO NANO.