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Wow, presumptuous
May. 16th, 2013 03:53 pmI don't post here much. I know that. I know that I don't really have a great many followers here and I never write anything truly profound.
And now, I'm being horribly presumptuous.
Have a Story:
When I was 16, I got pregnant and had a baby. I married the father. We also had another child. We were divorced before I was 21. He was abusive at his best.
When I was 22, I was in a horrific downward mental spiral. My 2 daughters paid the price and were removed from my care. They were given to my ex, and he in turn gave them to my ex-mother-in-law. (I think because at the time, he was dealing drugs and didn't want the children in foster care.)
Since then, almost 13 years has passed. I've grown up, I've raised my twins and learned from my mistakes. I've kept in contact with my two older daughters and we speak almost every day.
Then, I moved down near Cincinnati. There were a lot of reasons for this. I am not very comfortable going into all of them, but the move did do myself and the twins a lot of good.
Now, my eldest is graduating high school. I had money set aside to go see her, but then my furry overlord got sick. I had to make the choice of saving the money and maybe letting him get worse, or using the money and making him better.
I chose to make him better, thinking I could make the money back by selling plasma.
That turned out to be harder than I thought. If my iron wasn't too low, my pulse was too high. Now, today, they told me I'm on "indefinite deferral" until my doctor fills out paperwork to prove I'm not going to die. (Pulses were too high and now, they have to have the doc sign off on it.)
I don't know when that is going to happen. We need to leave the 30th to get there for her graduation.
I'm not going to have the money. I'm not asking for a gift, but a loan. Every single person who loans me will get paid back. Once I'm back, I'll put up a list according to website, and it'll have numbers attached to it. Those numbers will be an amount, and the order in which everyone is getting paid back.
That's why this isn't a donation: it's a loan. I will pay you back. No matter how long it takes. Everyone will get paid.
Even if you can only loan $5? I will pay it back. ASAP upon my return. I will post pictures as proof. I will offer anything as proof that I'm going, that you require. (Except pictures of my kids. I don't put those online in an open forum.)
Yes, I'm begging. Right now, I have no pride, because my daughter means more. My children mean more.
Please.
And now, I'm being horribly presumptuous.
Have a Story:
When I was 16, I got pregnant and had a baby. I married the father. We also had another child. We were divorced before I was 21. He was abusive at his best.
When I was 22, I was in a horrific downward mental spiral. My 2 daughters paid the price and were removed from my care. They were given to my ex, and he in turn gave them to my ex-mother-in-law. (I think because at the time, he was dealing drugs and didn't want the children in foster care.)
Since then, almost 13 years has passed. I've grown up, I've raised my twins and learned from my mistakes. I've kept in contact with my two older daughters and we speak almost every day.
Then, I moved down near Cincinnati. There were a lot of reasons for this. I am not very comfortable going into all of them, but the move did do myself and the twins a lot of good.
Now, my eldest is graduating high school. I had money set aside to go see her, but then my furry overlord got sick. I had to make the choice of saving the money and maybe letting him get worse, or using the money and making him better.
I chose to make him better, thinking I could make the money back by selling plasma.
That turned out to be harder than I thought. If my iron wasn't too low, my pulse was too high. Now, today, they told me I'm on "indefinite deferral" until my doctor fills out paperwork to prove I'm not going to die. (Pulses were too high and now, they have to have the doc sign off on it.)
I don't know when that is going to happen. We need to leave the 30th to get there for her graduation.
I'm not going to have the money. I'm not asking for a gift, but a loan. Every single person who loans me will get paid back. Once I'm back, I'll put up a list according to website, and it'll have numbers attached to it. Those numbers will be an amount, and the order in which everyone is getting paid back.
That's why this isn't a donation: it's a loan. I will pay you back. No matter how long it takes. Everyone will get paid.
Even if you can only loan $5? I will pay it back. ASAP upon my return. I will post pictures as proof. I will offer anything as proof that I'm going, that you require. (Except pictures of my kids. I don't put those online in an open forum.)
Yes, I'm begging. Right now, I have no pride, because my daughter means more. My children mean more.
Please.
