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It's funny
Jul. 12th, 2009 12:15 pmLately, I know I've been lax about writing here, and writing in general, but I've been extremely busy.
I noticed something funny, however:
I've lived in this area for twenty years. There are places I went once and said "Oh, I'll go back" and... just never did. They weren't important, ya know?
These last couple of weeks, I've been desperately seeking out these places, and trying to get pictures of all of them, so that I can remember them when I've gone. I've been crisscrossing my county, attempting to see it all, and experience it all, so that I don't miss anything.
All of a sudden, I don't want to let it go, and don't want to lose it when I'm gone.
My brain brought up the fact that it's the same with my writing. I don't want to let it go. I don't want it to be behind me, even in the metaphorical sense. This is the reason that I keep procrastinating at getting it done.
Hello light bulb!
I need to get it done, but I'm afraid of finishing it, because that means moving on to something that I'm not sure I'm ready for.
Just like the move, it's terrifying me to actually get it done and move on. This move has so frightened me that I'm not sure it's the right thing to do. Eleventh hour doubts are not unusual, just annoying.
I'm taking a step back and reorganising. I need to. With packing and moving, and everything... It's been a rush, but I need to finish things. I need to finish packing, and finish KoO. Neither is going to be easy, but it still needs done.
I noticed something funny, however:
I've lived in this area for twenty years. There are places I went once and said "Oh, I'll go back" and... just never did. They weren't important, ya know?
These last couple of weeks, I've been desperately seeking out these places, and trying to get pictures of all of them, so that I can remember them when I've gone. I've been crisscrossing my county, attempting to see it all, and experience it all, so that I don't miss anything.
All of a sudden, I don't want to let it go, and don't want to lose it when I'm gone.
My brain brought up the fact that it's the same with my writing. I don't want to let it go. I don't want it to be behind me, even in the metaphorical sense. This is the reason that I keep procrastinating at getting it done.
Hello light bulb!
I need to get it done, but I'm afraid of finishing it, because that means moving on to something that I'm not sure I'm ready for.
Just like the move, it's terrifying me to actually get it done and move on. This move has so frightened me that I'm not sure it's the right thing to do. Eleventh hour doubts are not unusual, just annoying.
I'm taking a step back and reorganising. I need to. With packing and moving, and everything... It's been a rush, but I need to finish things. I need to finish packing, and finish KoO. Neither is going to be easy, but it still needs done.
