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dragonjournal) wrote2013-01-23 05:43 pm
dragonjournal) wrote2013-01-23 05:43 pm
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Further inspired by tumblr
Okay, so in a continuation of this post. There are a few manifestations that I forgot/was uncomfortable with pointing out just yet.
Now, I'm in a better place and can expound upon them. So, back under a cut we go:
Other Manifestations:
Keep in mind, these are personal and there do not indicate the "right" way to have someone react to various mental conditions.
Social Phobia: A manifestation of it that I've not written about is paranoia. Not just that everyone is "out to get me", but that I'm constantly missing something.
Being behind a computer doesn't make it any easier, not in this instance. In a public setting, I can see/hear what everyone around me is doing. On the computer, I cannot see/hear these things.
And then when random things pop up about me on the internet, yes, they make me very paranoid about doing anything at all anywhere on the internet.
Yes, I do get the feeling that people are following me around. Yes, I do get the feeling that everything I post, no matter how minor/personal/whatever, will be analyzed and ripped apart.
It's very disconcerting and more than a little traumatizing. I, again, have my ways of dealing with it (some include being an asshole in general) but they do bother me and I have to worry about it.
This often manifests in several ways.
1) I will withdraw from certain corners of the internet. I will also lash out at those spaces if they continue to poke at me. If they follow me, I lash out and am not polite.
2) I push back, louder, angrier, and daring people to come after me.
3) I get too busy to talk to people I normally spend hours/days talking to, but have plenty of time to ping strangers and carry on random conversations.
Yes, I have my tricks for getting around these. Now, mostly, these tricks involve stepping away from the internet. Sometimes, it means scuttling off into a different corner.
Just because it happens in the virtual world doesn't mean that it doesn't infect the meatspace world.
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: I keep all my emails, all my IM conversations, everything so that they can be referred back to and so that I don't lose all trains of thoughts - especially when it comes to plotting things out - and so that I can remember who told me what.
I've been known to reread AIM logs for hours while searching for something.
I have to tag back. First thing in the morning, after my children are moving, I will run through and do tags. This is why people will get 6am tags from me. I don't stay up late unless I know I can sleep the next day.
Then, I go about my interneting and have a specific order in the way I do things.
Now, before anyone says anything: Yes, I am in therapy. Yes, I have a doctor. I am in treatment.
Do I ask for special treatment? No. Do I ask that sometimes you give me a bit more time to process things? Yes. I do. My words might also come out convoluted, and it will wander and I will take more time to get around to what I'm saying. And while you might not understand it, ask for clarification and you'll get it.
I hope these help someone out in their writing or even in meat-space while trying to understand someone with an issue like I've described. Again, always open for questions.
Now, I'm in a better place and can expound upon them. So, back under a cut we go:
Other Manifestations:
Keep in mind, these are personal and there do not indicate the "right" way to have someone react to various mental conditions.
Social Phobia: A manifestation of it that I've not written about is paranoia. Not just that everyone is "out to get me", but that I'm constantly missing something.
Being behind a computer doesn't make it any easier, not in this instance. In a public setting, I can see/hear what everyone around me is doing. On the computer, I cannot see/hear these things.
And then when random things pop up about me on the internet, yes, they make me very paranoid about doing anything at all anywhere on the internet.
Yes, I do get the feeling that people are following me around. Yes, I do get the feeling that everything I post, no matter how minor/personal/whatever, will be analyzed and ripped apart.
It's very disconcerting and more than a little traumatizing. I, again, have my ways of dealing with it (some include being an asshole in general) but they do bother me and I have to worry about it.
This often manifests in several ways.
1) I will withdraw from certain corners of the internet. I will also lash out at those spaces if they continue to poke at me. If they follow me, I lash out and am not polite.
2) I push back, louder, angrier, and daring people to come after me.
3) I get too busy to talk to people I normally spend hours/days talking to, but have plenty of time to ping strangers and carry on random conversations.
Yes, I have my tricks for getting around these. Now, mostly, these tricks involve stepping away from the internet. Sometimes, it means scuttling off into a different corner.
Just because it happens in the virtual world doesn't mean that it doesn't infect the meatspace world.
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: I keep all my emails, all my IM conversations, everything so that they can be referred back to and so that I don't lose all trains of thoughts - especially when it comes to plotting things out - and so that I can remember who told me what.
I've been known to reread AIM logs for hours while searching for something.
I have to tag back. First thing in the morning, after my children are moving, I will run through and do tags. This is why people will get 6am tags from me. I don't stay up late unless I know I can sleep the next day.
Then, I go about my interneting and have a specific order in the way I do things.
Now, before anyone says anything: Yes, I am in therapy. Yes, I have a doctor. I am in treatment.
Do I ask for special treatment? No. Do I ask that sometimes you give me a bit more time to process things? Yes. I do. My words might also come out convoluted, and it will wander and I will take more time to get around to what I'm saying. And while you might not understand it, ask for clarification and you'll get it.
I hope these help someone out in their writing or even in meat-space while trying to understand someone with an issue like I've described. Again, always open for questions.