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dragonjournal) wrote2023-04-05 11:25 am
dragonjournal) wrote2023-04-05 11:25 am
Stuff and things
So, may Patreon continues. It's where you'll find some writings, some horrible thoughts, and tonight a stream for writing.
Well, actually, that'll be on Twitch but eventually on Patreon. It'll be a free stream, since the story I'll be writing will be a free thing on Patreon. I want people to see my writing process and have a little fun with it.
Hopefully people stop by. I have a little issue with people not stopping by, and now that I can promote in several discords, and on Plurk, I might make that all important affiliate so that I can make money off of streams, as well as my Patreon.
Anyway, that's the money side. Now, for the not so fun sides:
We're not doing well. I've maxed out my credit cards and can't pay them back. I'm exhausting every avenue I can just to keep us in food, let alone gas or anything else.
And what gets me is Sam's dad spent $500 on weed the day after we landed. That could have helped! But I can't say anything, because of medical reasons I'm not going to discuss in an open forum. But it pisses me off and frustrates me that I don't have a car, because the idea and plan had been for me to take over payments on Dad's car, and then he pitched a hissy before we left about not having a car. So now, I'm without, paying his car insurance on a car I can't drive!
And that pisses me off. I want a car. I want a car I can drive and not have a 71 year old yank it away from me like a toddler with a toy.
So; that's where that stands. I will be so damned glad when he moves out. Because I am just done. And the problem is it might be months more that he's here. Sigh.
Sam finally has a line on a job. It'll be next week before he can start going, but that'll help. Then, he can take me to the bus stop to get to my job - if I get this paralegal job - and he'll have his car for his job. So, screw Cat I guess? But at least Spokane has a nice transportation system and I can find money to get on the bus, so that'll help.
My son needs something signed up for him, and I don't know where to start. See he had something starting in Ohio, but it doesn't transfer and if Sam and I are going to be working all day, I don't want him just hanging out at home, alone.
So, tonight, I have to talk to a friend who is coming over (people! IN MY HOUSE!) to watch Mandalorian and see what she recommends. Then, that'll require setting him up, and then we'll all be working and stuff. It'll be nice.
In other news, I'm worried this move was a Bad Idea. Not just because of the money stuff, though that's a huge part of it, but because it's not working out. I'm bored and stuck inside all day every day. And I know that'll change if/when I get a different job. But for now, I'm panicking every day, can't find my Klonopin and want to just Hulk out and rage quit everything.
and that's not going to help. It might feel good in the moment, but it won't help.
I'm hoping that a new job will help, instead of making me a troglodyte worse. If I start not coming out of my room at all, Sam will call Mike to come drag me out. And that won't end well for me.
Or Mike, come to think of it, because I know which knee is bad and am not above kicking it out.
This job sucks and I hate it. Not to mention, it means up at 430am, to work at 530am, off at 2pm. Can't I have a normal job? A job that's M-F, no weekends, and pays me enough to live and not just survive?
Or is that a pipe dream? Because my current job once I settle into my real schedule is 5am-330pm W-S.
And I hate that schedule, but they don't do M-F. And I wasn't giving up my Sunday.
Anyway, another thing is just my depression is getting worse. I know it is, but no doctor, and no insurance to start seeing one. Son has some, but I don't. I made sure he was taken care of. But my job said it could be weeks before I get my insurance cards, despite me having insurance since March 20. So. That's a thing. I'm almost out of refills of everything and need to pay for meds and don't have my HSA card either! YAY!
Scratch that, HSA came in the mail today. So. Time to go stream my writing, please stop by and have some fun?
Well, actually, that'll be on Twitch but eventually on Patreon. It'll be a free stream, since the story I'll be writing will be a free thing on Patreon. I want people to see my writing process and have a little fun with it.
Hopefully people stop by. I have a little issue with people not stopping by, and now that I can promote in several discords, and on Plurk, I might make that all important affiliate so that I can make money off of streams, as well as my Patreon.
Anyway, that's the money side. Now, for the not so fun sides:
We're not doing well. I've maxed out my credit cards and can't pay them back. I'm exhausting every avenue I can just to keep us in food, let alone gas or anything else.
And what gets me is Sam's dad spent $500 on weed the day after we landed. That could have helped! But I can't say anything, because of medical reasons I'm not going to discuss in an open forum. But it pisses me off and frustrates me that I don't have a car, because the idea and plan had been for me to take over payments on Dad's car, and then he pitched a hissy before we left about not having a car. So now, I'm without, paying his car insurance on a car I can't drive!
And that pisses me off. I want a car. I want a car I can drive and not have a 71 year old yank it away from me like a toddler with a toy.
So; that's where that stands. I will be so damned glad when he moves out. Because I am just done. And the problem is it might be months more that he's here. Sigh.
Sam finally has a line on a job. It'll be next week before he can start going, but that'll help. Then, he can take me to the bus stop to get to my job - if I get this paralegal job - and he'll have his car for his job. So, screw Cat I guess? But at least Spokane has a nice transportation system and I can find money to get on the bus, so that'll help.
My son needs something signed up for him, and I don't know where to start. See he had something starting in Ohio, but it doesn't transfer and if Sam and I are going to be working all day, I don't want him just hanging out at home, alone.
So, tonight, I have to talk to a friend who is coming over (people! IN MY HOUSE!) to watch Mandalorian and see what she recommends. Then, that'll require setting him up, and then we'll all be working and stuff. It'll be nice.
In other news, I'm worried this move was a Bad Idea. Not just because of the money stuff, though that's a huge part of it, but because it's not working out. I'm bored and stuck inside all day every day. And I know that'll change if/when I get a different job. But for now, I'm panicking every day, can't find my Klonopin and want to just Hulk out and rage quit everything.
and that's not going to help. It might feel good in the moment, but it won't help.
I'm hoping that a new job will help, instead of making me a troglodyte worse. If I start not coming out of my room at all, Sam will call Mike to come drag me out. And that won't end well for me.
Or Mike, come to think of it, because I know which knee is bad and am not above kicking it out.
This job sucks and I hate it. Not to mention, it means up at 430am, to work at 530am, off at 2pm. Can't I have a normal job? A job that's M-F, no weekends, and pays me enough to live and not just survive?
Or is that a pipe dream? Because my current job once I settle into my real schedule is 5am-330pm W-S.
And I hate that schedule, but they don't do M-F. And I wasn't giving up my Sunday.
Anyway, another thing is just my depression is getting worse. I know it is, but no doctor, and no insurance to start seeing one. Son has some, but I don't. I made sure he was taken care of. But my job said it could be weeks before I get my insurance cards, despite me having insurance since March 20. So. That's a thing. I'm almost out of refills of everything and need to pay for meds and don't have my HSA card either! YAY!
Scratch that, HSA came in the mail today. So. Time to go stream my writing, please stop by and have some fun?
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How did your paralegal interview go?
What's your current job? I'm sure you've posted, but I can't recall. I start at 5 a.m., but mine is M-F. And the early start time is my choice (for various reasons), but it can be really hard some days.
I follow the national weather service on twitter (are you on twitter?... I'll follow you there if you are (and am following on instagram)) and they posted today that Spokane is in for some serious rain tomorrow night through Monday night. Stay safe.
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Right now, I'm a pharmacy technician for a pharmacy benefit manager. It's M-F for now, and will, eventually, change to W-S. Which, fine, but... I just want a M-F job. I start at 530 for now, because I need to work 830-500 Eastern time. It's bullshit and I hate it.
We haven't seen any rain as of yet. It's been dry. But we'll see. We're not going anywhere (no gas/gas money to go anywhere).