I am not doing well

[dragonjournal]

Spring break is over. AJ spent most of the week by himself, at the house, with an alarm to tell him when to eat. Last Friday was bad because he tried to microwave his lunchable, and put it in for too long and burnt it, so he didn't eat. However, that was fixed because I got different lunchables for him.

Wednesday we were going to go to the zoo, but something happened and we didn't go.

What happened? Well, someone at work, we'll call her R, said that I was spoiling my son.

Because he now has a Spiderman bathroom, and I mentioned about maybe going to the zoo. And someone just piped up with "Wow, your son is spoiled isn't he?" Which, no, no he isn't. He's a good kid and helps out around the house when I need him to, and is awesome about things. His twin? Not so much, but he doesn't expect things and was so damned hype about his Spiderman Bathroom. He loves it and takes care of it.

And just, I hate that this is the way my brain works. I hate it. But I don't spoil my son. He's earned everything I give him. Just, why say that? Why make me question everything?

So, I've been dealing with that, and working, and trying to settle the new place.

Speaking of, got a notice yesterday that there's the smell of marijuana in the hallway. Which, not from my place, I don't even smoke. My place smells like food and jasmine. So, ya know.

Anyway. I'm working on a new story. It's called Slayers and hopefully, it will be good enough for something. I don't know yet.

Comments

[finch]

My spouse is a firm believer that children are not fruit and you can't spoil them. I think some people feel like any amount of treating children like people whose wants are important is spoiling, and I have spent a lot of time trying to pick that apart... I had a lot of toys as a kid, and I have a lot of toys as an adult, and I don't see any reason my kid shouldn't be able to have things or experiences that she and we both enjoy. I'm sorry someone was judgemental like that at you.

(Also we have a zoo membership! Zoo all the time! XD)

[dragonjournal]

See, the thing is I don't have many toys. I don't. I don't buy them for myself, because AJ needs things, and he should have everything. But now that his stuff is mostly done, I'm going to get a few things for me, and it's like, I have to justify it to myself? Because no, of course I shouldn't buy things for me.

(And yes, bought a zoo membership, just Wednesday was a crap mental health day and I didn't feel like going.)

[finch]

<3 It's hard! But being aware of it is like, half the battle, right? At least for me it is, so I hope it makes it easier for you too.

[jehanne1431]

The zoo is spoiling? Really? And Spiderman in the bathroom?

R is for ridiculous.